In my mind, I built a non-faced character, that gets stronger every time I've found things that makes me feel comfortable with some people, mainly words, attention and confidence.
Sometimes I dream in motion. With this character I lay down, I feel secure and beloved, I feel attended.
In a while, I've tried to give it a face, but it hasn't worked yet. I get confused when I got closer to someone, because it's strange, I'm used to be lonely, I'm used to be misunderstood, I'm used to be pointed as a crazy, I'm used to bad decisions.
It's always the same thing, I'm always the one to lose. I do not learn.
Some people wasn't made for love and I'm one of them.